Pretentiously "Alright"

Concealing those tearful eyes with my dark glasses

I pretend to be so unaffected, cold and emotion-free

People I pass by stare hard with their countless thoughtful vibes

I care not what they think or feel

This body which I drag moves with no instructions from me

My day does not differ ever and life feels like a one page story

I foresee the next five minutes in my every breathe

Flashes of "fog" blur my vision and I struggle to see the road with tearful eyes

Tell me, how many more years will I shout and weep silently beneath my quilt?

Tell me, how many more years will I pretend to be so tough, numb and emotionless?

Loneliness does not scare me; care does

Ghosts do not scare me; love does

I pray each day to “whoever” to protect me from this expression of deception

Few minutes from now, I would close this window and shut my brain to sleep

Tomorrow would be as predictable as the days I have been living

Once again, I will come back to my bed and weep for a minute to relieve the heavy heart

Yet again, I will conceal these puffy eyes, wear my shades and work for over 12 hours!

Dragging each day with no hope to see anything different tomorrow, I will alas finish life...

Written by Vrushu