Thursday, February 4, 2010

Am I Pretty?

Starring blankly at her wardrobe,
She shuffles her clothes messily,
And as every dress imagined fails,
She detaches each of them hopingly

Red makes her look fat
Black makes her look darker
Yellow looks stretched from her belly
And orange outcasts her unsurprisingly

She walks through the gate of her school
Blind to people coming in her way
Deaf to words of absolute dismay
She walks shamefacedly to her classroom
Ignoring every giggle during the day
Escaping every comment on her way

Every time he passes by, she calms her nerves
And with this feeling of being unnoticed
It confirms she is not allowed to love

She’s teased on Tuesday
She’s bullied on Wednesday
She’s gossiped about in history
She’s a butt of jokes in geometry

Hurriedly she rushes in her room
Holding god’s idol tightly, she cries so miserably
Tell me why didn’t you make me beautiful?

Every day’s hurt makes you numb
Tears only give birth to self pity
This lesson from life one day everyone learns

Enough! She shouts; enough to this stout!
She reads, she observes
She unlearns, she learns
Her wisdom so evidently pronounced

People genuinely sing ‘Lala!’ to looks just once
But if you sing bad intellectually
Then eventually these are the ones who quietly shun

Written by Vrushali Deshpande

15 comments:

  1. Well no body can understand a mind of a woman if nobody stares at her she is upset and if everybody stares at her and tries to woo her even then she is upset can you please tell me what guys like me should do that can please a girl

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  2. Haha! that's quite true.
    In that case you need to learn the tact of staring at her. Stare, but don't stare too much to make her uncomfortable.

    If you look around everywhere else and give her stares in installments, she would feel you are not interested. Lol..

    (conditions apply: the girl has to like you too, if she doesnt, god save you for the crime of staring haha)

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  3. Well here in US at least life is better if you stare at a girl she takes it as a complement i think
    Indian girls should also undergo an attitude change well i am not stereotyping so don't call me racist but i feel Indian girls tend to be more cautious and insecure in this respect.I am saying this from my experience of my Engineering days -:)

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  4. Yeh, it is never about the race.
    You would find girls of all kinds everywhere. It need not be country specific.

    NO girl would like any damn guy staring at her. She has to either like the guy who is staring or find him decent looking enough to encourage his gesture of staring.

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  5. I think there is a well established difference between staring & gazing.

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  6. Oh yeah if there is well established difference then can any one elaborate on that

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  7. As a meaning you wouldn't find a great difference between the two, however, there indeed is good enough difference in the usage of those two words.

    Most often when one appreciates beauty, it could be nature for example, we often use "As I gaze at the stars", but you wouldn't say, as I stare at the stars if you want to appreciate its beauty.

    You would say stare, when you are simply looking at the stars for a long time.

    As again you can definitely argue purely from the language perspective, but if you choose to see the difference, probably you will find a different side to it.

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  8. I may say Gaze implies when one sees something with a motive of observing it thoroughly,
    whereas Stare means when one looks at something without any specific objective, just blankly ie., without any thoughts about it.

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  9. @ shaishav

    But then there are people who stare if for example at a girl with a motive, which may not necessarily be with decency. Does one say "a girl got an uncomfortable gaze or an uncomfortable stare?"

    How can you possibly say then stare is when there's no motive??

    It's quite situational, don't you think? the usage I mean.

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  10. The gaze u mentioned above is 'Male Gaze' & girls definately have a sense to know that.
    Actually, I too think the meaning of stare n gaze vary with the situation & with the motives(whether good/decent or bad/indecent).

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  11. Ya the male gaze theory!

    Cool, we close the topic here then unless ahirnator has something to say.

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  12. i stumbled on your blog by chance and am glad that it happened. Never could i imagine that such a beautiful face had as beautiful a mind. really liked this poem. loved your explaination regarding the difference between gazing and staring :)

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  13. Thank you for the visit :)

    If I am not wrong I think I have seen you before. Junior? Are you from batch 2008-2010?

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  14. you are absolutely right maam, am your junior :)

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