Nearing the End

No words left to say

Feelings have all been betrayed

Silence fills ALL the remaining days

When I am Gone

In a world full of love and of lies

You looked into my trusting eyes

With a heart so pure

I thought you were sure

But you let the deceitful guise rise

I loved you more than words could say

But you took my chance at life away

With your endless lies

And deceitful cries

I forgave you, even as I lay

On my deathbed, I wondered why

You would betray me, make me cry

But in my last breath

I know I will forgive you, no less

For true love could never die

I hope you understand the pain

That you caused with your selfish gain

But in the end

It's you, my friend

Who lost out on love, in vain

So as I leave this earthly place

I hope you'll learn from your disgrace

For love is pure

And forgiveness sure

But betrayal will never erase

So goodbye, my love, I'll see you soon

In another life, under a new moon

And yet I'll forgive once more

But this time from the other shore

- Vrushu 

Lost My Being

Every word of hatred pierces through my heart,

Leaving me feeling torn apart.

Tears flow from my eyes,

As I try to disguise,

The pain that threatens to tear me apart.

I try to act cold and unaffected,

But inside I feel utterly dejected.

The weight of my words,

Like sharp, piercing swords,

I try to push the act away,

But it compels me saying, it's the only way,

I wish I could turn off this sick game,

But I hate my kindness & vow to never be the same again.

My words for you cut me too like knives,

And hurt so deep inside,

I wonder if my kindness I'll ever regain

I wish I could let go of this pretentious hate,

I am lost in this darkness, I fear it's too late.

The wounds of your betrayal still aghast,

Leaving me feeling so lonely and lost.

So I'll continue to show my cold side,

Even though inside, my feelings collide.

- Vrushu

If Only I Knew

Untimely cry seems like has become a part of my every day chore;

These uninvited tears seem to have found its home beneath my eyes.

Heart fills with too much pain, the reason for which hides deep within my soul.

Mind seems to have become too engrossed in thoughts that have no visuals;

That have no story.

I pass days and nights without once realizing I have gone way quieter from within to hear the noise of my silence.

I long to become stronger to escape the burns of my tears;

And with this determination I create more space within me to store unhappiness.

I foolishly presume my rudeness to be numbness

And with this delusion I push myself more into the ‘zero’ state – where nothing exists.

Your laughter echoed in the empty chambers of my heart

Filling the void with warmth and light.

But now, all I hear are the pieces of my broken heart.

Reverberating within me, tearing me apart.

I try to hold on to fragments of being loved by you last, 

Clutching at moments like fragile glass,

But when did they slip through my fingers like sand? 

Leaving behind only shards of pain.

I wander through the corridors of my mind

Searching for solace, searching for peace.

But all I find are echoes of the past

Whispering of dreams never meant to be. 

There's hope when loving someone becomes at least a memory,

Hope that memories fade with time. 

By loving me you gave birth to me 

Knowing alas that my soul came back to me.

Every moment with you can never become a memory,

Every beautiful moment was a different experience at happiness I would never feel

I didn't know being loved by you was to be so short-lived. 

If only I knew before I would have loved you more, 

If only I knew this was to be my last chance at love indeed. 

My last chance to be truly happy in this very short lifetime. 

- Vrushu