Tuesday, May 4, 2021

Love comes with pain

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When you love someone more than you love yourself, you want to give them everything you have. When they hurt you, you can't hate them. You just can't hate because the love is so much. 

We were destined to meet and give love to each other for at least sometime. In the process, we ended up hurting each other. But love isn't that fades away with pain and betrayal. Love is tested in its most difficult times, when things aren't as pleasant as you would hope.

Sometimes when the agony is too much, you have to take a step back and remember that you were friends before you fell in love with each other. Love is friendship. Love is respect and Love is trust. 

If we don't have friendship, respect and trust between us, there cannot be love left. 

Love does give us pleasure but it also comes with pain. There is no strong relationship that never suffered through its journey. 

Today, my tears are choking in my throat and I am suffering to cry my heart out. But I am unable to cry, I choose to punish myself by burying the pain inside me. 

My heart loves you too much that it doesn't want to ask you the reason you got so detached from me one day and held me responsible for no fault of mine.

I read our chats so many times today and I know I didn't have the courage to delete the chats because that's my only memory of you.  Today the same chats pierce through my heart, causing a lot of heartache. But how can I stop reading them? What else do I have of you?

When I open the chat to read, tears roll down my eyes and I go on scrolling up to read your messages full of love and care. My broken heart tells me to stop reading because there's so much love in your messages and my heartache increases with each message.

But I went on reading until I threw my phone away from uncontrollable tears. 

You gave me the hope of togetherness. You made me dream our future together. I am not hurt because I love you. I am hurt because I know you truly loved me. Your love was not a lie and that is not something I will get anymore. 

My heart wants you to achieve a lot of success in life. My soul wants all your dreams to come true. 

What will hurt me more is if you are sad. Never hate yourself for any reason. Make good out of your life, achieve your ambitions and be happy. 

Just remember in one corner of the world someone can never stop loving you. 


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