Lost My Being

Every word of hatred pierces through my heart,

Leaving me feeling torn apart.

Tears flow from my eyes,

As I try to disguise,

The pain that threatens to tear me apart.

I try to act cold and unaffected,

But inside I feel utterly dejected.

The weight of my words,

Like sharp, piercing swords,

I try to push the act away,

But it compels me saying, it's the only way,

I wish I could turn off this sick game,

But I hate my kindness & vow to never be the same again.

My words for you cut me too like knives,

And hurt so deep inside,

I wonder if my kindness I'll ever regain

I wish I could let go of this pretentious hate,

I am lost in this darkness, I fear it's too late.

The wounds of your betrayal still aghast,

Leaving me feeling so lonely and lost.

So I'll continue to show my cold side,

Even though inside, my feelings collide.

- Vrushu