Tell me !

Unknown hidden pain troubles me everyday
I crave to explore the reason of its being
This restless feeling gushes within me
And I beg to the invisible to set me free

I experience this ever increasing void
As I shout louder to him, ‘I love you’
Tell me if it’s something I am missing
Tell me if it’s someone I am missing

‘Being me’ with him makes me feel I am no more myself
It’s my ‘Self’ I do not recognize;
It’s my soul I disconnect with
I experience this wave of loneliness coming towards me
As I cry of past with a strong face pleading before him to hear me out!

I had lame parties and companions who I called friends
I had fatal cocktails and loud music to shun me from the world
Today I give him all my time
Today I surrender the entire ‘Self’ to him
Yet I experience this feeling of defeat
As I crave to share the world I ran away from
Tell me if it’s something I am missing
Tell me if it’s someone I am missing

Love meant everything to me
It is something I awaited for 26 years
Today it comes to me at its extreme
Today I experience care like I was never cared before
Yet I experience this feeling of incompleteness
As I hug him with all the emotions
Tell me if it’s something I am missing
Tell me if it’s someone I am missing

Written by Vrushali Deshpande