Lost in the traces of yesterday, I hold those memories with
tight-lipped silence. As the breeze sweeps
my wet hair, monsoon once again takes me back with you. Flashes of your smile that made your eyes go
small; the dance of those fingers, which were deeply in love ….
I sit wherever I find a place, in sedation of the hand I did
not want to leave. As you look at me with nothing but innocence, I let my
heart change its rhythm for you.
I am not paused; I walk with you. I drive with you. Things
around me live…days pass by, and I relive my today with you. A red traffic signal fascinates me to hear you
laugh. Cars speed fast ahead of me and hypnotize me to think of you. Alcohol
does not anymore make me cry for you; it takes me deeper into silence and the
world around me chooses to pause for once!!
The DJ becomes my friend; he plays the music loud and I do
not hear my silent screams. I step on
the floor, sedated to not love you. Those dance steps are no more the same. I
dance more passionately; to forget you…Am I too high to think you have appeared?
I stop... I step out for a drag and say nothing…
Your memories are as silent as
me...
Silence becomes long enough and I head back to get lost in
the noise and dance. Am I no more a good dancer? Why my moves do not sync with
his? I kiss him passionately, to forget you….Tears drip sideways as I seduce
him... Have I become bad finally? You “leaving me” is now justified.
Written by: Vrushali Deshpande
A part from my book, "Smiling Tears".
