Sometimes I stare blankly at my television giving an impression to people around me that I am just fine. Often I evade eye contact with them just to escape from their query of concern.
I often choose silence before my loved ones because I do not want them to know how much faith I have lost in life. I detach my emotions from my friends because I do not want to pass on my negativity into their life. I deny talking to myself because I do not want to make myself aware of the extent to which I am broken from within.
I silent myself before people who love me and I am in no position to trust people who do not love me. I stay quiet to gossips around me; I stay quiet to complaints of people; I wish that just for one day life decides to leave me alone and I can choose to do what I want to do; I can choose to be how I want to be. Today amidst everything I have forgotten the way to my life.
The more I appear stronger to people in real life; the more my weakness gets apparent here; the more people are scared of me in real life; the more I express here how detached I want to be from their emotions. Today I do not know how I started with in life; if I was better than this or have I become stronger in real life to handle it all.
The only way I get to know how far I have come in emotions; the only way I get to read me is when I am here. My blog lets me be.
Written by Vrushali Deshpande
Hello!
ReplyDeleteI'm no one to advice you on life or to judge you as a person but still, as a fellow blogger who's gone through the same thing time and again, I just want to assure you that everything heals with time. Just give time some TIME to show its effect. OK?
Cheer up girl! You've got such a gift of expressing yourself in a free,uncomplicated manner. Why not use it for radiating happiness??
I'm sure you'll do a good job of it!
Hi,
ReplyDeleteHonestly, whatever I write is very momentary and never in itself defines or impacts the actual personality of the writer.It is an impulsive feeling which is immediately expressed in words.
Oops!
ReplyDeleteSeems I went overboard with my comment then. Apologies for being so prejudiced!
Interesting posts nontheless. Would love to read more
It's cool ya! You don't have to be sorry at all.
ReplyDeleteGreat post...
ReplyDeleteU made me "Silent"!
:)
Khup chan, keep posted...
Tushar
I actually like this. Expressions are best expressed whether happy or sad! Engaging writing style. I like :)
ReplyDelete@ Fatima
ReplyDeleteYeh because at the end, what human's can best do (if they can do) is to express what they feel.
Thanks for the visit :)