I made another mistake

I mean every word that I say or I would not say it at all. I feel every emotion that I express or I would not let you know at all. To me words define the way I am to myself.   What I am to you is how I treat myself. I am not disappointed that you accused me of fooling you. I am disappointed at myself that just my being for so many years was not enough!   I am disappointed that since then I have been waking up almost every night in tears. I am disappointed that I love you enough to reprimand myself each day since then for a sin I have not committed.   It does not matter how hard you get on me. What mattered to me was the love you gave me. It does not matter to me that you did not bid me farewell.   What mattered to me was you came back to say take care. It does not matter to me that you do not want to see my face again. What mattered to me was that you saw me once for that one last time.  Is everything at all really a lie to you? Is every bit of...