I made another mistake

That I trusted someone at a very basic level to be humane with me. I guess it is difficult to be a normal human in this generation and yet they expect love when they are themselves incapable of it .

Fucking stupid heart

I keep telling my idiotic heart to not like anyone. Yet after a few years it likes someone as a friend and pours out everything. I tell my stupid heart people don't value that so never tell, never share. 

Yesterday I did after 11 fucking years!! I keep telling my heart you are not allowed to feel at all. 

It is a huge deal for me to share anything at all. Sometimes I wonder if I should be emotionally closed for others to value. 

Fame & Wealth

Left the world of fame which was nothing but a figment of somebody's imagination.  Now walking towards something that makes me smile. Fame was never my aim and wealth was never my ambition.  I only wanted to feel happy in whatever I experience.  Today when people learn of my past they are stunned and so am I. They wonder how could I leave it all and I wonder what is such a big deal?

I should be happy wherever I am, whatever I am, however I am.