They told me

They told me “Never tell your guy everything about yourself”; they told me “Never open up too much before him, let there be mystery”.

When I share my life with you, I do because you are a part of it. When I share my secrets with you, I do because you hold the right to know it all. I share a bond of wonderful friendship with you before anything else and I do not know a way to tweak in diplomacy. With you, I can be what I am.

Every time I hear you laughing, I cross my fingers secretly and pray this lasts forever in your life. Every time I hear you in pain, my heart fills with uncontrollable tears and all I wish is to hug you with all the warmth. Every time I hear your silence, I wish I never hurt you again.

Yes, I loved someone madly before I met you. Yes, I was mad enough to see hope in the relationship after every humiliation; even after I see some other girl love him right in front of my eyes. Yes, I was mad enough to cry helplessly and with every tear, I craved to hear him once. I gave six years of my life to him and it felt six seconds to him.

Love became a stranger to me and I could no more believe in it; it was my friend who took me out of it and helped me see the world from a new perspective. It is when I told myself not to believe that I have started liking him. If I remembered smiling again, it was only because of him. Yes, maybe he became more than just a friend.

I still remember the day when he left me forever. I still remember touching his cold feet and telling myself ‘This is the only time you can feel him’. I stored all his memories as I saw people taking him away.

Every time I see you looking at me with lot of love, I wish if I can love you back as much you do. Every time I feel the love, I ask suspiciously to myself if you are going to stay longer. Every time you hold my hand, I feel the warmth in your hand as much I can because I am too scared to have the thought of never feeling it again.

Today I give my heart and soul to someone once again; today I give my belief and trust to someone once again.

They told me “Never tell your guy everything about yourself”; they told me “Never open up too much before him, let there be mystery”.

But if I do not tell it all to you, whom do I have to tell it to…?

Written by Vrushali Deshpande

Respect your Love

Every person in his life wishes to meet the one who is made for them and I am not sure how many eventually get lucky with this. Before stepping into a relationship of love, we often wonder if he’s the one who is meant for us and after an awful break up, we start to doubt the celestial concept of meeting our soul mate. The next time love hints at us, we hope this relationship lasts forever and as it proceeds we again foolishly ask ourselves, ‘so is he the one?’ More often than not, this continues until we completely lose faith in this concept of meeting the latter half of your soul.

Life acts funny when you are out of your dream world, letting reality in its extreme practical sense creep into your life and you meet someone who from an acquaintance becomes a friend and from a friend becomes the one with whom you can share your deepest secrets without fear in your heart; with whom you can share your past without tears in your eyes; with whom you can share present without hesitance; with whom you can share your future ambitions as if you two were one. You share a relationship where you read his thoughts as though you can hear them in his silence; you share a bond where you get the vibe from his body within the first few seconds of your meet that he is upset about something or has had a bad day. The relationship goes beyond words like ‘celestial’ and ‘supernatural’.

With immense love follows expectations and you wonder why you expect so much from this person when you never did in any of your past relationship despite the hardship involved into it. When reality does not meet expectations, one may get angry and this when suppressed slowly pushes into your subconscious mind. When complaints from past relationships are suppressed the unresolved anger often gets directed unfairly in your present relationship. This incapability to discuss complaints and vent out your frustration with the person of past makes you to later see his negative resemblance in your present relationship and this especially happens when your present relationship says or does something that is closer to the past which apparently once caused a lot of pain to you.

When angry over any issue with your love, discuss it out intelligently or you may end up losing the one you waited for your life because of the unresolved grievances of your past. Remember, chances are miniscule that we meet the one made for us; remember, it is not often that we seek love from them and it is an absolute fortune and rarity that we get to spend our whole life with them. Treasure them when you get them; and if you don’t then the next time you cry, you will lose the right to complain before God, begging for love to step into your life.

Written by Vrushali Deshpande