Smiling Tears

I write only when I do not share with my loved ones the things that upset me the most; I write only when I am well assured none I know will be able to feel within them what I intend them to understand; I write only when I do not want to be a victim of some so called friends who bring up your weakness and problems shared with them in fights. It is only then that I blog.

15 years ago I used a notepad made out of scraps of electronic device’s packaging material and a pen that was first visible to my naked eye. I did not share with a walking, talking creature then as well.

Today on my birthday, I write because I experience ‘Smiling Tears’ from a perspective I never thought of when I first came up with this title. For me it always meant the attitude of being strong and smiling in life despite the odds.

Every time people who knew me in person asked if ‘Smiling tears’ means tears of happiness, I wondered if I give out such positive vibes and I hoped they never Google my blog to be later disappointed with extreme level of gloominess.

Every time people who knew me visited my blog and said ‘I can understand’, I was surprised at the simplicity at which they looked at my complicated emotions.

The frequency at which I stayed connected with friends, I am taken aback that there are so many people who remember my birthday; especially when they are not even on any of my social networking sites. I am shameless to admit, that’s the only way I get to know my friends birthdays.

Thanks a ton to my friends in media; journalists, bollywood film producers and PR professionals.

Thanks a ton to all my juniors from Graduation College who have wished me every year since the time they have met me.

Thanks a ton to my colleagues because you helped me see relationship beyond the meaning of professionalism.

Thanks a ton to my dearest family who has given me everything I ever asked for! Love you all the most.

Thanks for making me experience Smiling Tears in its most simplest way, 'Tears of Happiness'

Surprise Surprise! Advance Happy Birthday!

‘Overwhelming’, is a very small expression to the gesture I am receiving from people around me. Just one day before my birthday I am loaded with gifts from family, friends & colleagues and it indeed is surprising when you get an amazing gift from people you never expected even in the weirdest dream.

Today I have come to realize the existence of people in my life who did not necessarily had to be sweet with me. No, it isn’t about the money they spent to buy me those gifts, but a simple gesture of making me feel good; the most natural smile they had on their face when they saw me happy.

I believe that a person can earn millions and billions but it is their emotion which they want me to see and not the fancy gift really. I saw it on their face; in their eyes so evidently that I did not know I can be special to so many people.
Today I have to come realize there have been people who are exceptionally nice to me despite my untimely mood flings and yet they keep their patience. I guess it’s time for me to observe the nice souls, value them just a little more and treasure them forever in my life.

Amidst the whole ‘turning 26’ sadness, for a change I don’t feel that bad anymore! Haha!

@ 12:00 am it's going to be time to open the gift from work, an amazingly delectable 'White Wine'.